2012.

OH HELLO THERE!

I was just checking out my blog and realized that I haven't posted anything in a very.. long.. time. Hah. Well let's see what has changed since my last post. I'm now eighteen, waiting for my SPM results and thinking what I want to do with my life. I know, I should have a decision by now. But the truth is.. I'm stuck. I don't know what my next step is going to be. Hopefully I can get out of Miri, that's one thing that MUST happen. Staying here isn't going to do me any good, but I would like to spend the most of my time here with my lovely friends :) I know we'll all be going our separate ways, sooner or later. I think it's going to be pretty soon, though.. I'm going to miss all of them.

I was cracking up reading what I posted about the little girl who was ruining my relationship. Hats off to her, she managed to do so. :) I'm all right, I'm doing just fine. My life can't be all about ONE relationship that was always bringing me down. Haha, well..

I used to LOVE blogging. This took up all of my time when I was in Form 3. Caused quite a big amount of drama, too.. Which isn't a good thing. I guess I treated my blog like a diary of mine, I kept on pouring out all of my feelings here, ONLINE. Like whaaat.. Haha I don't get it. But I do love this blog, it contains a lot of memories. Even though I deleted all my older posts.. No way am I going to let history repeat itself again. Cross my heart.

KAY BYE.. Maybe I'll post something another time when I feel like it. ;)

Broken Machine

Hey guys :)

As you can see, I deleted all my old posts. I just felt like doing it.. so.. done. Anyways, i'm seventeen now. 17 years and 7 months old :) I don't think i'm any different than I was before. I'm still Nicole. I'm still a bitch and i'll always be ♥ aww haha. This year i'm going to be sitting for my SPM. I'm scared like hell but I don't understand why i'm still not working hard for it. I'm supposed to be studying, right? Instead i'm doing this. Wasting my time on things that have nothing to do with SPM. If blogging could help me be a better student, then i'd be a top student, no doubt -.-

I wanna talk about bitches who don't understand the meaning of "A relationship consists of two people ONLY". I know you're just a kid but seriously. Why the fuck are you so annoying? Well it's not completely your fault. He can ignore you. But he chose not to. I guess he likes the attention :) You're not a pedo, babe. But you're not an honest person either. Blah blah blah. You can say you've changed. But in truth, how much can a person change? This is so hard.

Sometimes I get the feeling that we're not going anywhere. But then i'll think of why I held on for so long in the first place. And why did I hold on for so long, lol.

What should I talk about now? I have no idea.

YOU.

YOU.

YOU.

It's almost your birthday. 26th of August. But as usual, I won't be there to celebrate it with you. Oh how sad. But i'm sure you'll have a good birthday. Forgive me because I can't be there with you on your special day. But i'm not superwoman. I can't do everything. :( Remember when I came to Kuching to surprise you on your birthday in 2009? Such an epic fail. The only good thing was that I surprised you. And the first thing you said to me was "What are you doing here?" Lol nice question la, b. Obviously I was there for your birthday. A special thanks goes out to Ecia and Hanafi for helping me out with the whole thing. I miss those times. Now it's a rare occasion that I even get to meet you. But i'll still remember what you said.. This is the last year of us being apart. Next year i'm gonna be with you always.

♥

I hope that comes true.